Victoria's Family Found Her

I have waited over 3 years to say those words.  Three years I have prayed for this little girl.  I am still on cloud 9.  Finding Reece's Rainbow and Victoria was during a dark time in my life.  I had just had my second miscarriage and there were no answers and I was told I would not get any unless I had another one.  That thought was too much to bare at times.  I was stuck in a world of two extremes.  A part of me that knew I would have another one and just wanted to have it happen, so I could get answers.  I know that sounds so crazy, but I can't explain it.  I was already raw with the news of the second and I didn't want to start healing to be torn again.  The other part of me that just wanted to be a mom.  I started searching for information and adoption came up a lot.  I found this blog.  I met sweet Evan and I fell in love with international adoption and special needs kids, especially AMC.  Through the blog I learned of Reece's Rainbow and saw all of the beautiful children.  I immediately saw Victoria and fell in love.  That is the day I started praying that she would find a family.  She was the first I started praying for.  I found out that she was in one of the worst orphanages in her country and I prayed harder.  Then I found Carolina and I started praying for her.  Every morning I would pray for these two girls to find a family.  Then I found Emerson and Anastasia they were the last two.                       They were in the same orphanage and I hoped that a family would find them both.  There are many children and why these four struck my heart I will never know.  If you asked my husband it is probably, because most were the least likely to be adopted.  Victoria and Anastasia have AMC and cannot walk right now.  That is a big deal then on top of that Victoria is older.  Thank you for finding her Victoria's family.  Anastasia was in isolation, because her orphanage did not understand her needs (she has recently came out of isolation after 2 years and is doing great).  Emerson is said to have brain tumors.  Carolina is shunned in her country due to her Roma heritage.  Well the past couple of months have had me on cloud nine.  Anastasia was first.  A therapist went over to her country to volunteer to show workers over there how to work with kids and feel in love with her.  I jumped for joy as she found the perfect family with access to the resources that she needs.  Then Carolina received a large matching grant and a lot of exposure and her family found her.  I said wow again.  Then the biggest surprise of them all.  Someone else loves this little girl Victoria too.  Someone saw what I see in her.  I just can't tell you how excited that I am.  I guess this is just a bunch of rambling about how I found all of these kids.  So I guess all I have left is Emerson.  Someone look at him and she the handsome boy that he is.  Don't let his diagnosis scare you.  He deserves to go to school, play outside, and experience the love of a family.  I have waited 3 years for these girls to find their families.  3 long years of praying.  I feel like Emerson is part of their family.  Please share this so all of the family can have a family coming for them.  

Fatherless Friday - Emerson

I have good news.  Carolina's family has found her.  Yea Yea.  Jumping up for joy.  I have been waiting for this day for several years.  Well in the name of good news and not wanting this Fatherless Friday to go on without sharing an orphan I give you Emerson

Oh I have seen this boy grow up in pictures through the years.  Isn't he a cutie.  Please check out his link.  Remember that they do not have access to great medical care.  His diagnosis may not even be correct.  Even if it is, he still deserves a family.  Look at those beautiful blue eyes.  Are you his family?  He doesn't deserve to sit in a mental institution.  He should be going to school and playing with friends. 

Fatherless Friday - Carolina

It is that time again, Friday.  It is time to learn of a new lovey that needs a family.  This little girl has a bunch of people that have been raising money for her.  This means if we can find her a family they will be half way funded for the adoption.  This means that with the adoption tax credit you could possibly give a child a family and receive the money back that you had to pay.  Look at this beauty, she looks like she would make daughter and sister.  Please read, share, link, so that maybe her family will find her.

Now some of my ramblings for the week.  My husband, oh how I love him, taught me something this week.  He taught me that my perspective of people and children are not shared by most.  He taught me that while I find it easy to see others perspective and mine at the same time, most people have a big problem with this.  He read last weeks blog post and said how could you want to bring home a child with special needs.  He said I would feel so bad for a kid with missing limbs.  He thinks he would feel bad for them everyday, because he feels bad for Max and his spots.  I reminded him that Oscar Pitorious just raced in the Olympics and he is missing two legs.  I thought how could you feel bad.  Then I thought some more.  My husband feels bad for Max, because he might be picked on by others due to his spots or he might miss out on parts of life because of them.  He would be afraid for an adopted child for the same reason.  It is all about perspective.  When I see any orphan I see a child who wants to be a part of a family.  A child that wants to be loved.  I don't see special needs or age as something that would be sad.  I see them in a family as happy.  No matter what they would face in America it would be 100 times better than what they are going through now.  Now they get fed maybe two to three times a day the bare minimum amount of food.  Food that we would not consider food.  They are not played with,  they are just left to sit or play with one of a handful of toys for the group.  They are not loved.  If they wear diapers they maybe changed twice a day, because diapers are expensive and they can't afford to change them more than that. There are three caregivers for 50 kids.  They can only do so much, but they don't have enough time in the day to take good care of all of the kids.  All children want to know that they are loved.  Most children with special needs don't know what it is like to not have them.  They don't feel bad for themselves.  They only know how to react based on how their family reacts to them.  Please see these children just as that, children.  Children who want a family, who want to be loved, who want to know that someone will not give up on them.   

Fatherless Friday Victoria

I know I have not been doing a good job with this, but the last 3 weeks have been crazy.  I want to get back at this and get to doing it every week.  What a better way to get back in gear than the girl who started this blog, Victoria.  You can read her Reece's Rainbow Profile here.  I have put that on this blog already.  I want to tell you what I see when I look at this beauty, so this is going to be a little rambling.  If you know me then you know I want to adopt, but my husband is not on the same page.  I would adopt in a couple of years.  I would ideally pick two kids that would nicely fit in between Kenzie and Max.  This way Kenzie would still be the oldest and Max would still be the baby.  I would be up for some special needs, but nothing to big (sorry not trying to be offensive), something like missing limb, clubbed feet, hearing loss.  So how does that even fit into this post about Victoria.  She is almost ten years old, she has AMC, she is nothing like the dream.  Why would I tell you all of that.  Well even with all the things she is not if I could adopt right now, I wouldn't choose the dream.  I would choose Victoria.  I would choose her smile, her beautiful eyes, I would choose her in all of her imperfectness.  How a girl that has lived in one of the worst special needs institutions in Eastern Europe can still smile, I don't know.  She has nothing going for her, she is old when it comes to orphans.  People want babies, so they can enjoy all of those first.  I promise people everything will be a first for Victoria too.  Her first birthday, her first Christmas  her first step, she has nothing, so everything she does and sees will be a first and she is not a baby.  She will remember all of those firsts.  She will be able to tell you and show you how much she loves all of the firsts.  Most of her day consists of sitting in a bed with no interaction, but the kids sitting in their beds next to her.  She does not have toys or anything to occupy her time.  She should be playing outside with her family and going to pick out the perfect pumpkin   She should be choosing what she wants to dress up as for Halloween.  She should have long beautiful hair, pretty dresses, and cute polished nails.  She should have a family that loves her for her.  If she was born here she would be up walking going to school.  Nobody would look at her and be afraid of her special needs.  She would have been encouraged from day one and taken to great doctors that could fix her legs and she would be up walking around.  She wasn't born her in a family that has taken her to doctors and made sure her needs were met.  She has nothing, but her smile would make you believe that she has hope.  She is a beautiful girl that wants to get down and play.  She wants to learn and just be a girl.  Someone please see the beautiful girl that I do.  Really look into her eyes and see the hope, see her potential, see her.  Imagine how big that smile would be if she could just be a kid.  Oh somebody make my year and go get this girl and let me see that smile.  Please share her.  Please I will beg for her please share her.  You never know where or who her family is, please share this beautiful girl.